Thursday, May 18, 2006

liverpool 3 west ham 3

i think God is really teaching me what true humility really means, to do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but to consider others better than yourselves, and to look at others' interests above your own. i thought i had learnt this & mastered this, but when put in a position of responsibility, i realise i still have to learn. over this week, i have spent much time doing a ppt presentation and then have it subjected to many many points to improve by the team, in which there were members much younger than me. when they gave their criticisms, i realise that they are very competent and talented.

i have much to learn to them. and everyone has been very patient, tolerant, and gracious to me. i could have been unhappy cos this can be quite "malu" to me, to have someone older and supposedly in a position of leadership be subjected to teaching by someone younger, but i realise that everything, talents & position are actually the result of grace, and the means by which we serve others. by learning from them, i also allow them to develop their management skills and self-confidence, it allows them to exercise their talents, so they are also built up by me being teachable. In the end, I was also blessed by my teaching. And they are leaders too. They are spending 2 months serving in the church, to disciple and be disciplied. I was graciously offered this too, but I know I can't, cos I have conscription liability. This means God has other plans for me in other areas, but since this people are at the right age and point in life, and have the availability and the heart, oh, may they be built-up to the maximum to realise their potential and consolidate their direction in life. I admire their competence, their commitment, & the maturity that is beyond their years.

Everyone is a leader. God is fair to everyone. He wants us all to work together. Oh, it had to take experience to teach me this. when i read the Purpose Driven Life it had not touched my heart at yet. If God remains in me I will bear much fruit, apart from Him I am nothing. But how good God is, that if we follow His Word, we will always be blessed, because His word is breathed by Himself, & its precepts are right, and it explains how as a church we should be united in love & common purpose. as I stay home & recover from sickness after being tired out by work, teach me to be humble and peaceable. teach me to be humble and peaceable again.

The wisdom that comes from above is pure, peaceloving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy & good fruit, impartial, sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.

The writer is doing conscription liability in __________. He cannot be named to protect his identity, cos freedom of speech is enshrined in the constitution. He has 393 days to go.

Monday, May 01, 2006

chelsea win premiership

pple r always generous with me & i dunno how to reject them, but on the few occasions when i
attempt to be generous to them, they always decline. sigh.

today i felt pai seh and told her i really
couldn't continue to ride on her generosity...i think
my thin-skinned hurt her cos in the past i've accepted
her generosity and ate her snacks...it backfired, but
i really am confused...cannot allow pple to treat me
all the time.

yesterday my fren treated me and i said i'd treat her
back, and she chided me to just accept the treat
graciously and if i must be generous, pass on the
generosity to others. trouble is, every time i want to
be generous to another person, the person won't let me
do it. wanted to zap notes for a fren, was already
outside the shop, but my fren on the fone was so
adamant that it was not necessary that i couldn't go
ahead to do it.

also, am i pro-incumbent? i dun support incumbent politics!

the writer is doing conscription liability in ________. he contributed this article to the blog
in his personal capacity. he cannot be named to protect his identity, cos freedom
of speech is enshrined in the constitution. he has 411 days to go.