Sunday, March 26, 2006

chelsea 2 manchester city 0 (drogba 30, 33)

sigh.

went for keyboard presentation. after 10 weeks of lessons, this is the presentation that will give u the grade for the course. (ok lah, there was a smaller presentation in wk 6.) practised quite hard. chose a difficult song, i think i overestimate myself. 不自量力.

anyway, after the ballot i was the last to play, and when i played, i was v nervous, such that i played a chord wrongly, instead of playing C/G, I played C/E instead, & after that most stuff started to go wrong. I started to play too fast, still in rhythm, but the beat was no longer 55, i found myself going at about 100 & even the class had stopped singing the song to follow me, but i couldn't stop cos i just wanted to finish the song. verse, chorus, modulate to D major, verse, chorus, then extro, finally finish, & comments were, "chords firm, rhythm firm, but u went too fast & your pedalling is out." in my nervousness, & cos the keyboard pedal is different from my piano pedal at home, i was pedalling each time i changed the chord, instead of after. sigh. i think there goes my A. I may get a B. I really don't want to get a B.

this is ironic, cos in the evening i was just telling isabel that we should have the spirit of excellence to glorify God, not a compulsion to win so that we can gratify our own selfish ambition. i need to repent of my hypocrisy & pride. so i prayed & God told me that i'm learning this to pursue my love for music so that I can use it to worship Him, & I should do it in a stressless environment & just enjoy the music & the worship. I repent of my hypocrisy, pride & selfish ambition. I want to be sincere & practice the counsel that I give to others. I want to learn my lesson so that God does not have to make me go thru that tough discipline to learn the same thing.

this morning i played some songs using the keyboard techniques i've learnt - & hey, they really sound quite nice on the piano. the people r pressing me to move on to Worship Dynamics 1 - the fees are $288 for 12 lessons - should I? It's also a commitment to another 12 weeks of lessons.

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

tagboard

got a tagboard. scroll down below to see.

Monday, March 20, 2006

real madrid 0 real betis 0

my mum and aunt are trying to matchmake me with a girl. they say there's this girl interested to meet me and talk to me and ask me to go for lunch together with her.

what is this?

i am old enough and can make my own friends. and i'm not hard up.

but i want to obey my mother.

dominic, you are right. stimes it's hard to be human.

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

chelsea 2 spurs 1

& with another 1 of those NE-related events that my unit is famous for organising, & needs representatives to participate, I find myself at this old shophouse in Chinatown, attending this Image & Forum Theatre workshop at NeNemas, the education arm of Dramabox, a 2-day course actually organised for teachers to show them how to teach NE using drama. There were about 22 teachers, mostly from primary school, a couple from secondary school & ITE. the course organisers were very professional and taught us games how to use image theatre. basically everyone is divided into groups of 4 and takes turns at directing a frozen scene based on a theme - in this case, it was a divisive society. then the audience views each scene and votes the one that they can identify and resonate the most with. that scene is then re-enacted by the participants for further exploration. people talk about how they identify with the scene. the participants are asked to take both just 1 step backward each and freeze, & then 1 step forward each and freeze, so we all can explore how this scene will develop to perpetuate a society becoming more divided, and then the causes of how such a scene came about respectively. for example, 1 popular scene was a frozen one clearly re-enacting an MRT-scenario, 4 people cluster themselves but mind their own business. 1 is apparently smsing on mobile, 1 is holding onto the rung, 1 is holding onto the pole, 1 is sitting down reading. it was quite fun, but at the end the feedback from the teachers wasn't v positive, cos they said that in primary school the students had not reached the level of maturity to be able to use drama to do this kind of independent learning & reflection. wanting to salvage some face for my unit, i quickly told them that this is a good way to dovetail changes in teaching format with the recent "Teach Less Learn More" move. they can at least use drama and skits to teach, but more explanation can be given. somebody also made a good point that students should be encouraged to learn & introspect independently from young, if they grow up used to rote learning & dished-out teaching, they will not able to pick up independent learning methods so early when older. i had fun lah, glad to participate in the course, none of the other course participants knew i am actually an NSF, but they were honest enuff to say that to spend the 1st 2 days of March holidays at this course is cos they are arrowed to. o/w they looking forward to holidays when they can have a break at home in theory (come back to school and finish work w/o the students around in practice). hee hee.

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Thursday, March 09, 2006

liverpool 0 benfica 2

i'm fat.

mum doesn't care. tell her i need to go on a diet, she's the only 1 who can help me, she agrees, then urges me to take more noodles, which is my favourite.

chio colleague in office:

"我肥吗?"

She: 你不瘦, 老实跟你讲. 你该多做运动. 我们比较看上健壮的男人.

金玉良田言, 忠言逆耳!

oh but it doesn't matter, cos i dun wanna get married. i've always told mi frens in London this.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

liverpool 0 charlton 0

yesterday my colleague asked me to help her do something simple, and I objected on the grounds that it wasn't my job, leading to a confrontation, a dressing down by my branch head, the spoiling of my relationship with her, and me sending an apology to everyone on the email list. She sent an email saying she accepted my apology, but we're still not on talking terms.

this has led to another colleague (B), who doesn't like her, thinks the first colleague is dangerous (A), tries to warn me against her, & in a sense even use me as a weapon to get back at her. at lunch today, B and I were having lunch with C. B tried to get me to tell C about the bad things A had done. Every time B talked about the bad things she claims A did, C says that we shouldn't do such things, & says what's the right thing that should be done, ostensibly telling B that that's what A should have done, but I can tell that she's objectively telling me that this is what I should do!

I didn't wanna help her cos it's not my job, but in the past I wanna help others cos the Bible said so. B said, "who are you trying to be, Jesus Christ?"

I said, "yes."

and B said, "你干麻呢? 你做不到的 - 你又不是圣人." I have a reputation in the office for being too soft and kind, like a lamb that's waiting to be slaughtered.

Did I do the right thing? Telling B off in the email destroyed the relationship between B & me, destroyed the reputation that I've sought to build up, put me in a bad light to my boss & colleagues, endangered my Current Estimated Potential, put me in a precarious position cos there's been many times my colleagues have been nice & magnanimous to me & now they can always choose not to, unleashed greater politics in the office, & failed to glorify God there too.

Do I have a single friend in the office? In the office everyone has no permanent frens, just permanent interests.

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