Saturday, October 29, 2005


Today we went down to SAJC to do the Security Seminar. Frankly, the school is rather old, and it doesn't have state-of-the-art facilities like NJC or HCI, and I forgot to bring my pen and had to buy a green pen for the school bookshop, but then, I really liked the old boy who came back to give the talk. He was velly farnie & charismatic, he used a lot of slang & dialect like "siam", "jian fei", "boh chup," "buah song", and had all of us luffing. & then the COL, he was very good too - considering it's his 1st time, & wah, he's both an LTC & a lawyer in civilian life - how successful he must be. Like the white and blue school uniforms with the tie, but isn't it rather troublesome to have to wear a tie all the time? Anyway, today people in the office were very nice, I had lunch with my colleague at Clementi Central, a welcome departure from having it at Mindef all the time, and we had a really good time talking about Branch Heads, working in the civil service, etc etc, and she even treated me to fruit punch. Actually we had lunch there cos we didn't know where to go, and we didn't know that Harbourfront is so near SAJC, & missed the stop for the hawker centre at Dover, so ended up at my place of dwelling. When I got back, managed to talk, even if it was just for 2 - 3 minutes, wif 3 other colleagues. It takes quite a lot of effort for me to talk and to show interest in sustaining a conversation cos I am not a conversational person, & actually, when I talk to pple, it's not for socialising, but to build friendships & rapport, & hopefully, I can bring God's love & svc to them in some way. A lot of times it backfires & they end up meeting my needs instead. I remember God told me that He doesn't really care about what I've studied or where I've been, and really, when I come back, I see that it doesn't matter! What's most important is relationships, character, & svc. It's so hard to follow the verses that I set as the raison d'etre to my life when I was suffering & learning in the UK - "do nuttin out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus. Who, being in very nature man, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made Himself nothing, taking on the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. & being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself unto death on a cross." If only I could achieve that level of humility, service and love that Christ did. It's so hard, cos I'm basically egotistic, shy, and I still need to work on my interpersonal skills. But at least I toked to them, & managed to show love to my neighbour today when I met her on the way home. Last week when we went for the evangelism talk the guy was right, you must reach out to people in your community, around you, but then, it's my next-door neighbour, & I've only talked to her 2 or 3 times & can't remember her son's name! Actually, I tried to talk to her a bit, & u noe, obedience is better than sacrifice, & obedience realli works. From that simple conversation & concern about her son's exam, she asked me whether I would give her Pri 1 son tuition. Then she said she would think about it, & asked me to think about it too. If it comes thru I've got a job, w/o worrying about having to find a student next year. Then of course there's the issue that this kid's only P1, she's prob not going to pay me v much, like the $35 per hour I had last year. But I know the parents are not happy with this sum, & they don't want me back next year, even when I call to ask how their son did in the exam, they very curtly tell me they still do not know. Cell leader is right, & cell member is right (if they do read this, they know who they are), you are most blessed when you go out with the express intention of blessing the other person, u get blessed urself instead. hopefully, this will be the start of a fruitful relationship. My neighbour is v nice. she did say I must come over for coffee, and she's got DVDs to lend me, but u noe, I am thin-skinned, and pai seh, & we never actually got down to meeting up, & then it's hard for me to relate wif them cos she's a mother wif 2 young kids 6 & 7 & I'm a 23-year old guy who's "technically single but not available"! but anyway, hope it'll be good, & as each day passes, I'll be able to improve my relationships wif pple in the office. I realli started out badly, but then I've got to say that every day is a new day, & i must keep trying. Hopefully I will be able to identify and meet their needs skilfully and accurately.


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